Obsession with external appearance/cosmetic surgery!

HI,

 I`ve recenly read TPON and A New Earth and both resonated with me in a big way. Like a lot of people I feel I`ve been searching for something and I`m aware of that if I can become present as much as possible. HOWEVER, something I`m really still struggling with is an (embarassing) obsession with my appearance. I`ma 30 year old male and had a rhinoplasty some years ago because I had a big nose for my face (most people would not have disagreed!). However, I have never realized myself when I see myself in the mirror and I think that the surgeon has definitely removed too much of my nose in certain places — blah, blah, blah. Anyway, I know that I am supposed to accept myself and acknowledge my deeper `self` but I am really struggling to do so.A large part of me wants to have another cosmetic procedure to resolve what I see as an unsatisfactory result — and a lot of the time I will be very happy !! But another part of me is exhausted with looking at myself in the mirror and obsessing — I know it`s such a waste of life and I am embarrassed at my vanity and so very bored of it. Plus the fact. Has anyone got any suggestions as to how to diminish this crazy obsession with the external body? It`s funny because I can not be peacefully. ) and practiced being aware of reduce my ego — but the pull of `correcting 'what I perceive as a problem is so strong !! I know I`m still VERY identified with my thoughts and DEEPLY UNCONSCIOUS a lot of the time — so maybe I just need to practice awareness a lot more?Maybe I`m not ready to fully awaken and need to suffer some more !? Any thoughts?

Please help.

I did not find the right solution from the internet.

Thanks!